Just when I thought it was safe....

I recently thought I might try the online dating thing again....

Well think again...

Just as I was considering posting a new profile, I felt some ugly repercussions from my last foray into that realm...

No, I am not going to divulge any kiss and tell secrets...

But let's just say I am pretty horrible at wading through the good, the bad, and the ugly...

And by ugly, I mean those who are not what they seem....

I have managed to be attracted to a Nigerian scammer, a secret service pain in the ass, and a reformed con artist....

Okay, so maybe he was not as reformed as he led me to believe...

I just look for the best in everyone...

And I end up getting shown the worst...

Maybe it is not just on-line dating...

After all, I did marry a man who turned out to not be the husband or father of my kids that I wanted...

Maybe I just suck at any dating....

Either way...

I have just decided to continue my sabbatical from that arena for awhile longer...

If I hint at going there again, please stop me...

Do anything to stop me...

I did not need to know that....

This month I spent quite a few hours with LDBoy's friends.

In between mourning - there were a couple of nights that were pretty much a toast to life and let's party like Ryan would have wanted us too...

Saturday night after the house fire, quite a few in town friends went to downtown Akron and shared a drink or three and reminisced.

The last time I had seen most of these friends was at the awesome New Year's Eve party...

I thought I had handled myself and my alcohol pretty well that night....

Saturday I began to hear differently.

Hey Mom, how ya doing? Remember me?

Yeah...(why wouldn't I??? )

Remember my friend here???

No? Have we met before???

You don't remember?

No....

I was thankful that I was pulled away from that conversation ('cuz I was sorta afraid of where it was headed) to go across the street and watch another friend perform his Drag Queen show which he dedicated to Ryan....

That was a first for me...

It was fun, especially since we all knew the performer.

And all the tips he collected he handed over to Ryan's family to help cover travel and funeral expenses. Thank you, Preston.

And then Thursday night (because apparently Thursday was the night the boys liked to party at Lux's)...

First Class Limos supplied two limos (because apparently Ryan was such a good customer) and Lux's nightclub supplied food....

And it was here that I realized that I was not as in control of myself on New Year's Eve as I thought...

Apparently I had even more fun than I remember...

And we will leave it at that...

Where is Phillipia????

It has been a crazy month so far and I have not had much humor in my life to blog about....

But I will be back soon....

I promise....